awaken from a dream...

yupz.co camp jus ended today 7 dec. n im here damn shacked cos i onli had 1 hr of sleep in the past two days. (zhengyou!ur fault!)but stil wana blogg here cos....some things jus floated into my mind,n thru this co camp i realli learn alot..or shall i say re-learn? i duno either. wat i noe is, i haf finally...awaken from a dream!

co camp 5-7 dec. 5,7 dec is morn xiaozu, sectional lunch 3 hours, 2hr xiaozu + 2hr dazu.6 dec morn xiaozu, aftn supposed to be activities like caps ball and board games. den night go watch cco concert, n den stayover at our junior zhengyou's house.yea.ok i start wif the stayover? it was completely diff from the one tt our xyz grp had at minyi's house, altho er both live at sengkang? cos of the pple i shld say, of all the peeps onli dayang had gone to the previous stayover. the others are j1 bong wenxi n me, sec 4s shouhao,sinhwee,zhengyou,junzhi,ruihong,hongfei. yupz so quite alot of juniors....thus, i couldnt help but rmb the previous stayover during yest's stayover...hmm....was it tt long ago??...n now where were the j1s tt had attended the stayover at guinea's house??? duno y but feel quite sad when i recalled tt stayover yest..

i rmb it was cele sharon's bdae...

Guinea's Stayover (Part 2)

the key was alr in the lock! in a while both gals are gg to come in la!...so we quickly light the candle (while trying to wipe the cream off from dripping), den off all lights....den siam to a corner where they cant see us when they open the door. ok evething prepared so smoothly....we were waiting for the two....den guess wat the stupid maplestory bkground music was blasting loud! its like so ironic la the whole room dark dark onli can hear the cute cute sound playing.haha but we cant do anithhing le so might as welll....ya. ehh den we keep waiting but the two gals seem to be stuck outside....den libo suddenly realised that the lock tt we previously put in place haven been pulled back!...wahh.i haf to run to the door again n den pull the lock la. den run back again to the corner.wif cream dripping. den when she came in, minyi on the light of the kitchen (for duno wat reason>>>???) den we jus sort of "sprang out" n sang the happi birthday song lo.den sharon was standing like 10 feet from the cake liddat....so scared for wat???she wasnt stunned lo more of apprehensive, bet she predicted sth lidat rite?? cannot be poss tt she realised its fake just by seeing it?so we sang the song (unsuccessfully) den it was time to cut the cake la...err...minyi went to take the knife. den sharon jus cut the sponge wif it lo.attempted la. ok. i mus say here tt SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE CLOSER TO THE CAKE WHEN CUTTING!! budden she did not she was ten feet away n leaning forward cutting the cake??? how i cream her wif the cake??? yea?? so wat happend later cannot entirely blame me la.

err ok she cut e cake like approx 3 times lidat (cos sponge leh how to cut>??) den i tot it was too obvious if she realise the "cake" cant be cut....so ya i quickly take the whole "cake" n "smash" (attempted) into her face. ya la her face was the target but duno y she dodged ???? n thus the cake onli creamed like her hair?? the whole cake was smacked on the floor la wif all cream flying about in all directions. yea stil rmb tt scene. den cos it was unsuccessfully (onli her HAIR got creamed?? aft so much preparation?:??) creamed, dayang quickly went in front n er "attacked" her face wif the cream la. i think got zham some.yay.yups den aft tt someone on the lights n bingo! the whole room was cream. the floor esp. haiz den we haf to wash up lo. use tissue paper wipe n den use mop to mop.err ok la din tot of using hand to dry the mop before mopping...wahh dun keep saying i dun do housework leh. aniwae ya each of us went to wash feet wif detol or sth cos the cream was OILY. yea in the end even the 'bdae gal' took the mop n mop la.chao paiseh haha..ehh for jus like 5 seconds of fun we had like so mani preparations n aftermaths work to do???hahaha. budden all for the fun ma.

n so ya aft all cleaning work was done, n dinner finished, time to show the real cake! so how we do it???hahaha.originally i asked her to siam aside, like got sth to tel her. but cant of think of anithing at tt time la. den was stuttering all the way...trying to make time while they prepare the candles n such on the real cake on a washing machine. got a few times its realli a close shave tt she saw the cake la. haha bet she din notice.we were like bringing the cake ard the house, some guys trying to distract her while others do the cake. budden in the end haf to resort to "use" minyi to call her to her room....which worked! hahahahahahahahhaa. in future got anithing jus ask minyi to distract her haha.ok den we prepared the cake taking our time la in the kitchen, den push the piano/organ chair back to the centre of the living room, den all things looking exactly the same as the first cake was presented. off the light. den we were making sounds to show tt we are eating dinner or sth. so as not to arouse suspicions mah. c hwa chong peeps so smart. den when all were ready, we asked minyi n sharon to come out lo. haha den sang the song again (duno how mani times unsuccessfully)den HA! bet she got the REAL shock tis time cos we all can c the stunned look on her face.hahahah.u dun think we will like onli cream u n not buy a cake right??yaya. so taking of photos wif cake, wishing bdae wish, cutting of cake, taking out of candles.blah blah blah. hahaha budden the two gals quickly siamed to the com to play ms again straight aft cutting the cake. so fast!! left me to cut finish the slices n distribute. free labour ar. n den ya had some washing up, some time lagging, n ya this is probably the end of our small litt surprise bdae for sharon.haha.

jin guan had to go at about 11 sth. so left 5 of us, dayang libo sharon minyi me. initially(aft like duno how long of pulling BOTH gals frm the com screen)we played poker. wif mahjong tiles as money. den haha ya it was ok some of us went bankrupt while others earned alot. ya i was beginner ok but i was down to the last mahjong tile when i revived!! n den i became rich!! hahhahaha.okok.

den pple go bathing...except me n libo.aft tt, our dear host decided tt she was too tired so she siamed to her queensize bed n slept from then on.which effectively leaves 4 of us around a glass table in the living room. wif a fan blowing. n pringles. ok so wat do 4 pple around 1 table do? yea we played contract bridge. n believe me, i tot it was not as fun as floating bridge...but i was wrong! haha! it was 2.30am we start our first game i think.haha evebodi was v jin sheng n focused la. cos i was sitting opps sharon n dayang opps libo, the teams are formed. den we competed! trust me it was damn mind-racking la. pple setting traps all over the place. haf to wreck ur alr half-dead brain in the middle of the nite to carefully put ur card.haha but dun mind me say but dayang was either quite noob or quite braindead cos he did alot of obvious mistakes (libo haf to remind him sometimes for some VERY obvious things...) den ya but he provided entertainment la at least.hahaha.okok.at the start we were quite honest la, but later evolved until the pairs start to communicate thru eye gestures (ok la sharon half the time err i din noe wat u were trying to communicate tho ha) den libo n dayang team even more pro use words to ask la.haha.but ok it was quite a fair game. esp team up mah.den got goal somemore. more motivation. more fun. yay.

we played from 2.30am to 8.30am, with no stops but onli one which i needed badly (cos nid to bang bang....u all v bad, dun let me bathe!!!! u la sharon the other two din say anithing lo.) but towards the end all 3 guys alr eyes drooping and head nodding down le except tt hyper gal...den when we play is like err nomore using of brains we jus DIN hav the resources in our brains to interpret the cards le lo. haha mus c our facial expression tt morn...its like sit there n play for 6 hours leh. the road became quiet to noisy, sun rising, birds chirping etc.haha. n we kept on playing n playing. budden it was realli a struggle la, sometimes 1 team win consecutive 4 to 5 rounds, blah blah. in the end, perfect score of 20 - 20! which meant we played 40 rounds of bridge in 6 hours.........which took up almost the whole night n part of the stayover.hahhaha. wat i learnt from tis stayover?? contract bridge is fun! dun mind playing in chalet!

ya aft tt, while we were playing the last few rounds, minyi sleepilliy came out den cooked breakfast for us. french toast!bread + egg. budden haiz nid me to go n fry aft the game was done.ehh mus say sori ar i realise i din fry the egg until its fully cooked some stil have the raw taste in it ..eee..in the end fried more than enuff tho.haf to stuff them into my stomach. den us 4 lied down on the sofa annd floor n jus fell aslp lo.for halfhour i think, while minyi was mapling.den at 10am sharon wana watched tis kids central show until like 11, so we pei her watch. den we zao le...yupz...

haha ok i told u the fun parts are both the buying food/cooking, preparing of cake and the 6 hours contract bridge parts.n so the next stayover....hope we haf more peeps to come n play!thx evebodi!!!~

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yupz tis was the fun stayover tt we had....tt i suddenly recalled yest when i was at zhengyou's house.budden the juniors were like playin PS2?den we oso watched movie.ya.den aft tt pple started to sleep, den aft playing wif small mahjong tiles we got bored n lied down lo (ruihong n hong fei were still playing the ps2 la)...n ya tt was the time when me, zhengyou n dayang realli started tokking crap...den aft tt...the xianyue camp came into the convo...n tt was when i was truly awaken..

yupz alot of u shld not noe the juniors that well rite? cos they frm chs. hongfei,junzhi n ruihong are all previously erhu players lo. n they are fast la, in handling songs... but still haf some areas to mo lian mo lian. as for zhengyou, he's my er decessor or sth, student conductor, n ya so naturally more close to him. oso erhu player. 4 of them should be joining us next year, but zhengyou shld b joining huangcheng in the first 3 mths. yea...haiz budden the other sec 4s haven come yet...so v hard for me to confirm who is joining or not.

yea...tt convo took place while we were like lying down with our 3 heads on one cushion in different directions. it practically touched on all that i haf been worrying abt xianyue stuffs ...ya can say tt. n ya zhengyou realli gave me a loud smack on my head. i mus admit tt as the aft-promos days go on, i became demoralised day by day...by both xianyue n xianyue camp. ok i feel no nid to elaborate here. but jus tt it became so bad tt a few days b4 i jus could not find tt enthuness ani long. tt enthuness of organising n organising. tt forever long nv die dreams, tt once lived in my soul.its like a wrecked piece of shit now.realli, i felt quite empty. its tt fortunate tt i had tt convo wif both DY n ZY, such tt i found back tt rush for xianyue. ya. briefly its like tis. cant express in words fully.

zhengyou -- forget abt wat shit tt i told u abt xianyue, forget abt anithing i said abt anione in xianyue cos u duno them yet, forget abt the bai lei words tt i stupidly uttered on tt nite....it was truly amazing how society changes people. i was like u, once tot to be immune to these things, but i was wrong, apparently.one cannot live without a strong identity of urself. i wil show u how fun xianyue peeps can be...

n abt the other juniors? did i tell u anithing abt the current situation? i think i mus spend my utmost time in the hols to tell u all evethg...since most j1s are not coming for hols pracs.

one thing said on tt nite was great -- as long as there is one person still holding tt trust n hoping u can do sth for him/her, it is worth it to plan the biggest event ever, no matter if it is jus for him/her. in other words, as long as there is one person still wana go for the xianyue camp, the camp will proceed. zhengyou was rite. it is a chance they have given me to do sth great. wat tot had i have to discard tis chance? haf i realli changed tt much??

as for my own section mates -- zhengyou n dayang, i still hold on to my views.strongly.when u become the sl, maybe u wil know. n others, pls support the camp!

mengdie is nice. yea i played the gaohu solo until it was like shit.realli.if in the end i am the one playing it for the concert, den i wil haf to train hard...but one thing abt the melody. it reminds me.....of none other than the co n xianyue stuffs tt we all had, esp syf....n syf, seniors. n seniors, xianyue dinner/outings...den the photos. den blah blah. i mus go n search for these memories....so tat the feeling in the solo part can be fully expressed. tt wil be my homework.

ooh.hey sharon u looked extra sianz today last day of camp in dazu.yea cant blame act. cos u onli gal in xianyue there. yea jus my observation...mmm..

minyi, yea anithing bu shuang say out ok? dun evething keep within urselves.. esp on tt first day of camp...xiaozu.

co camp...mayb wil blog some day abt it? or shld i? frankly, tis activity had made me n bong think more about our positions in co n stuff....n yea....co...has realli realli alot of probs now.im not afraid to say it out loud. from the juniors, to the current j1s, to the exco, n to particular individuals? budden. bong haf trust, so haf i. altho realli not mani cares abt the co now, it jus lightens ur heart when u think that at least there's another who cares abt it like you. realli. n den, back to the stayover convo: "as long as there is one person enthu...."

i called wuhan.he leaving on friday i think. den coming back onli in march nx year to get results...den....zao le.not coming back? he say duno....n den....i went back to read his first post...sheesh. i duno how or wat to say...but yeah. our paths haf to part one day....n it jus depends whose leave whose first..

it was 7 + pm when we were all leaving the LT aft a tired day's of xiaozu n dazu (aft a sleepless sleepover)on dec 7. the end of our camp. the horde of us, bong,cheegake,melvin,royston,delin,shouhao,zhengyou, stella,jiangchuan,angie,jiankai,dayang,me.we were walking out from the chi high side...down the road. n den i was suddenly thrown wif this feeling...of parting and leaving...frm the co camp.frm co peeps. these few weeks of practice, we haf been seeing each other almost every two days. n den 3 consecutive days....n den i realised that it is precisely tis type of "sian" dazu "sian" xiaozu, tt we "sian" tgther, tt we see each other no matter if we realli noe each other tt well, tt bonds us. realli. den at the gate, all of us went separate ways....jus like 1 year later, aft our concert, all of us will leave for our separate paths in life....den we would nv meet again? the same gang of people tt sloughed thru tis tired co camp? tt trained for the co concert?...syf..?...

at bustop, bid "farewell" to dayang, since he gg NS on fri. haha not tt i wont c him ani longer, jus tt it jus feel kind of strange tt the guy who alys so enthu now cannot come for ani outings in december...ani co pracs in dec....n so when i raised my hand and waved, there was this touch of bu she de. haha. dayang, one day we would sit at the "lake" and tokked about all the times huh?haha...

leaving for NS, for china, for hometowns, for taiwan, working, attachments.

n den i was wif zhengyou n shouhao, my two closer juniors, walking across the bridge....den i felt tt...our j1 era is gg to be over..n soon these juniors will be in charge of the co. whew. wat life bears...n to think this is onli 1 year of my life.

alrite.tts all frm me...im spent. eyes blackened like siao.realli sorry for the long post...jus wana say it loud...