HCCO XYZ

hello it's me again (: [kaili says hi, btw]

i'm scared and i'm nervous and i'm excited!!!

mostly scared.

the thing abt it now is that we've all been in really good COs since forever. ny, chs, rv, st nicks, uh i think that's all right? haha. we're all good. i think we are awesome and i think all our sec schools are awesome too.

but then when you're good who do you want to compare yourself against? the schools without 7ji/9ji/dip? the schools with a weak background and a lot of drive?

all of us want to be perfect. we're comparing ourselves against the professionals; with our individual standards it's hard not to.

when can we tell ourselves we're GWH standard?

what IS GWH standard?

given where we are now can you go to SCH and get a GWH and come back happy?

in sec2 we thought we were good and we got silver. and we bitched all the way back on the bus and for the next few months and for the next year.

then in sec4 we realised, in sec2 we were actually pretty shitty.

GWH is a competition against ourselves -
how far do you think we can go?
how far do you want to go?
how far do you have to go before you can come back satisfied?

last week i would have disagreed with shouhao. how can we fight against ourselves if we can't even fight against other schools? but now i'm beginning to think maybe we can. (:

well now we're good, but we're not THAT good. yin zhun and correct gong fa/zhi fa can only take you so far. when we're good enough the flowers will bloom for our da di. when we're good enough the bell in bell song will be visible to you even as you play. when we're good enough everyone will be a part of the song, not playing it. nyco - you know this from feng nian ji. make it come true again.

somewhere out there, our music is waiting to find us...

reach out for it and it will come. <3